Depression Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

Nothing’s pretty anymore. It seems like every time I open my eyes I am confronted with worse news than the day before. I can think about it, I can get angry about it, but none of that seems to matter in the end. It’s like the world is just set against you from the day you’re born. I watch TV and I’m confronted with people just telling me to have faith. Have faith in what though? You want me to have faith in the people that are being caught victimizing other people? Fuck you I say.

 

No matter what we do none of it seems to make any sense. The whole world just seems like it’s being caught up in all of this sea of shit that seems to govern and dictate people’s lives. So many people just seem to think that the problem can be fixed by allowing someone else to do it for them. That’s the mentality that just doesn’t make any sense to me at all. This isn’t the kind of thing you can just sit back and write little messages on your hands about. It’s not a problem that’s going to go away by throwing money at it or just trying to ignore it.

 

We have a responsibility to our offspring to see this thing through. The more we try to stick our heads in the sand and pretend like it’s all been a be okay tomorrow the more that the people who are causing the problem are going to be able to continue to fuck things up. I think this modern mentality of cowardice really is a construct of the people who want to keep everyone in line. I’m not saying that we are all 24 hour a day for soldiers but we are definitely responsible for ensuring that we remain free. All of the people who cry oppression will be sadly mistaken when they find out what actual slavery is like.

 

We need to unite under this common banner if there’s going to be any hope for tomorrow. I know I’ve said it before and I probably sound like a broken record now but the fact of the matter remains that even someone is disconnected from society and culture as I must maintain a level of involvement with what’s going on around me. I found YouTube as a way to reach out to a world that I otherwise am incapable of reaching out to own my own. I’ve even managed to overcome some of my own feelings of alienation to tell you all these things that I think and that I feel.

 

What’s going to happen if we don’t? I actually physically shudder to think about the consequences. Also, the fact remains that even if there is some kind of common banner and people do unite under we may fail still. That’s sort of the double-edged sword. I know for one that I would rather have tried than to have not tried at all.

 

It’s just something that seems to spiral out of control. Whenever you think you have a grasp on it, it proves you totally and completely wrong. I wish that this kind of thing made more sense if there was an easy answer than we can all just do it and get it over with but it’s not that simple. We actually have to work on unlearning what thousands of years of civilization of taught us is right, what eons of history have told us is correct.

 

And it certainly isn’t fucking correct, that’s for damn sure.